"I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid
To take a stand, To take a stand
Everybody, Everybody
Come take my hand, Come take my hand
We'll walk this world together through the storm
Whatever weather, Cold or Warm
Just lettin' yah know that you're not alone
Holla, If you feel like you've been down the same road."
--Eminem "Not Afraid"
Dear Diary,
I've been thinking about this a lot lately. It something that in my heart I want to do. I want the world to know. I want to help other people in my position. It took me a while to get to this place. My heart tells me one thing and my head tells me another. I'm constantly thinking What will other people think? Will anyone care? Will this help? I can honestly say that I'm not sure what other people will think. I not sure anyone will care enough to even read what I have to write. I have no idea if this will help anyone. It will help me though. And If I can help one person come to terms with their illness or If I can help one person to see what other people go through, It will be worth it. I want to make that difference in one person's life. Perhaps, someone will even be able to find the strength inside them to fight their illness if they realize that they are not alone. I'm scared, diary. I do not know what people will think if I post this. However, part of me wonders if it even matters what anyone else thinks. I am doing this for me. I'm doing this to put my words, my story, out there in the off chance that it will make a difference. Maybe people will make fun of me. Maybe people will understand what I go through. But maybe just maybe, It doesn't matter. Does it matter if a few people in this world make fun of me for posting this? No, I don't think it does. There are always going to be people who don't understand, who make fun of others, who just don't know what respect is. And I'm starting to think that that is okay. I'm not here to change anyone. I'm not even hear to get pity. I don't want pity. I am hear to tell my story.
I'm doing this for me.
Love Forever & Always,
Me
To take a stand, To take a stand
Everybody, Everybody
Come take my hand, Come take my hand
We'll walk this world together through the storm
Whatever weather, Cold or Warm
Just lettin' yah know that you're not alone
Holla, If you feel like you've been down the same road."
--Eminem "Not Afraid"
Dear Diary,
I've been thinking about this a lot lately. It something that in my heart I want to do. I want the world to know. I want to help other people in my position. It took me a while to get to this place. My heart tells me one thing and my head tells me another. I'm constantly thinking What will other people think? Will anyone care? Will this help? I can honestly say that I'm not sure what other people will think. I not sure anyone will care enough to even read what I have to write. I have no idea if this will help anyone. It will help me though. And If I can help one person come to terms with their illness or If I can help one person to see what other people go through, It will be worth it. I want to make that difference in one person's life. Perhaps, someone will even be able to find the strength inside them to fight their illness if they realize that they are not alone. I'm scared, diary. I do not know what people will think if I post this. However, part of me wonders if it even matters what anyone else thinks. I am doing this for me. I'm doing this to put my words, my story, out there in the off chance that it will make a difference. Maybe people will make fun of me. Maybe people will understand what I go through. But maybe just maybe, It doesn't matter. Does it matter if a few people in this world make fun of me for posting this? No, I don't think it does. There are always going to be people who don't understand, who make fun of others, who just don't know what respect is. And I'm starting to think that that is okay. I'm not here to change anyone. I'm not even hear to get pity. I don't want pity. I am hear to tell my story.
I'm doing this for me.
Love Forever & Always,
Me
This looks great Ash! Let me know if I can help you out with anything. Maybe we can put a couple widgets on the side going to links that you want to share.
ReplyDeleteVery admirable is the first words I thought of ... there are many more ... passionate, strong, love, fearless ... we are proud of you Ashley. Never quit!
ReplyDeleteI would like to get on your distribution when you have blog updates. Not sure how to do that exactly ... computers/technology can be challenging even to nerds like me.
Joey
Ashley, thanks for writing your blog!! You're very courageous & strong to tell your story for all the world to read. Your story is inspiring!! I'm here if you need a shoulder to cry on or an ear to vent to. I have chronic illness/ chronic pain issues as well & it's nice to know I'm not alone!!
ReplyDeleteHi Sandy,
DeleteIt means so much to me that you've read my story, so Thank you. I'm so sorry to hear that you to are chronically ill. You are not alone. If you ever need someone to talk to, message me anytime. My e-mail is ashfredx7@gmail.com