Dear Diary,
It's been approximately 3 years since the day I was diagnosed with my first chronic illness. Some would say that 3 years, 1095 days, is a long time and it is, but sometimes it feels like it's only the beginning. That's alright, though. I'm ok and I will never be anything but. Three years ago, when I was diagnosed, I was a different person. I am changed. I grew up. Some say 19 years old is still young, but in a way I feel older and younger than most people my age. I've been told that "I'm wise beyond my years...", but I'm not so sure that that's entirely true. I think I've just seen and experienced life in a different way than most people. And let me tell you, people don't lie when they say life isn't easy. It's not easy. I don't think it was ever meant to be easy. My struggles will be different than your struggles, but that is okay. I truly believe that God only gives us as much as we can deal with. I can deal with this. If it wasn't me than it'd be somebody else and I know I can handle this, somebody else might not be as capable. Someday diary, I will share my illnesses with you, but today is not that day. Today, I've decided to be silent.
Love Forever & Always,
Me
It's been approximately 3 years since the day I was diagnosed with my first chronic illness. Some would say that 3 years, 1095 days, is a long time and it is, but sometimes it feels like it's only the beginning. That's alright, though. I'm ok and I will never be anything but. Three years ago, when I was diagnosed, I was a different person. I am changed. I grew up. Some say 19 years old is still young, but in a way I feel older and younger than most people my age. I've been told that "I'm wise beyond my years...", but I'm not so sure that that's entirely true. I think I've just seen and experienced life in a different way than most people. And let me tell you, people don't lie when they say life isn't easy. It's not easy. I don't think it was ever meant to be easy. My struggles will be different than your struggles, but that is okay. I truly believe that God only gives us as much as we can deal with. I can deal with this. If it wasn't me than it'd be somebody else and I know I can handle this, somebody else might not be as capable. Someday diary, I will share my illnesses with you, but today is not that day. Today, I've decided to be silent.
Love Forever & Always,
Me
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