Upside

"I want to turn the whole thing upside down.

I'll find the things they say just can't be found.

I'll share this love I find with everyone."

--Jack Johnson "Upside Down"

Dear Diary,

It took me a long time to realize this. Maybe it took me a long time to see. 

I mean really see, not just with my eyes. Not just see it because it's right in front of me, but really see with everything I have and everything that I am.

It's funny, you know. Sometimes the best messages, don't come when your expecting them.

They're not written in a book, or even given by a person.

Sometimes the best messages are just there. They are just there waiting to be found, and sometimes if you look hard enough, you'll find out that they were right in front of you the whole time.

I never really thought myself to be someone that is closed minded. I always thought that I did see the world around me, but I'm not sure that's true. I think I'm just beginning to see what's right in front of me.

You know, there really is an upside to everything. The world isn't black in white. It's not even grey. It's just a brilliant shade of every color. It's a rainbow, and you never know what to expect.

I think we forget that. We constantly want to see the bad in everything. We constantly want everything to be in black and white. To fall into these neat little categories that we construct for ourselves. But, that's not life. Life doesn't fall into a category of good or bad. It's everything in between that. If we constantly try to put a label on everything, were not really seeing. It's like we are blind in a place where there's so much to see. Where everything everything exists if we just wake up. If we just open our eyes and see.

If we just constantly grasp to the upside of everything, despite what life tells us, then we are really seeing. We are really seeing how beautiful everything can be.

Life was never meant to be easy, but it's not supposed to be hard either.

It's just supposed to be.

If we never really see that, are we ever really living?

I don't know if any of this makes sense, but maybe it will.

Just do me a favor, and open your eyes.

Love Forever and Always,

Me