Inspiration

"Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.

I don't wanna ever love another.

You'll always be my thunder.

So, bring on the rain

And bring on the thunder, and I said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

Do you know you're unlike any other?

 You'll always be my thunder."

--Boys Like Girls "Thunder"

Dear Diary,

I haven't talked to you much lately. I haven't written to you, and I'm sorry, diary. Today, I'm going to tell you something really important, though. It may not be as important to some people, but it's touched my life. It's really something so simple. Just a few words put together by people, but in a way it's so much more than that. It'll always be so much more than that to me.

They tell me,

You are inspiring. You inspire me.

It's funny how a few words can hold so much meaning. How a few words can make you feel like you finally accomplished what you've been trying to from the beginning, but they do. They mean everything to me. 

When I started writing to you, diary, I thought that maybe I could help. I thought that maybe I could make a difference, even if it was just in one person's life. I needed to make my mark on this world, but I think I've finally realized that I don't have to make my mark on the whole world. The world is a big place, and maybe I just need to make my mark on my little corner of the world, on the people in my life. It's not about inspiring billions of people, or changing the whole world. I probably won't ever inspire or change the whole world, and that's okay. If I have inspired one person in this world, if I have changed a small portion of this world, than that's enough. 

That will always be enough.
There is something though, something these people telling me this don't know.  It's something they may overlook, something they may not find important, but it is. It is important to me. 
They are my inspiration.
I'm not even sure they realize this, diary, but it's the truth.
And that, is one of the greatest gifts anyone can give me. 
That, right there, is amazing and important,
Amazing and important to me.

Love Forever and Always,

Me

 

Hatred, Violence, and Love

"But if you only have love for your own race,
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you are bound to get irate, yeah.
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates.
Man, you got to have love just to set it straight.
Take control of your mind and meditate.
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all."
--Black Eyed Peas "Where is the Love?"

Dear Diary,

Murders. Gangs. Theft. Assault. Rape. Bullying. I see and hear about it pretty much everyday. It's all over the news. It's talked about all the time. It's all over everything and you can't escape it. You can't escape the reality that this stuff is happening. You can't escape all the violence and the hatred, and I don't get it. I don't get why people have to do horrible things to other people, to animals, to everything.
We have so much hatred in this world, diary.
It's sad. It's sad that so many people think murdering somebody is no big deal. It's sad that so many people give in to their hatred, and I sit here and wonder why any of it matters.
Does it really matter what color you are?
Does it really matter where you live?
Does it really matter that so and so hurt your feelings or stole your girl or boy friend?
Does any of it really matter at all?
I don't get why it is so easy for some people to just pull out a gun and shoot someone. What is doing that going to prove? It doesn't make sense.
There are so many good things in this world, diary.There is so much to love, if we just take a second to look and see. I'm starting to realize this more and more.
Life isn't about hating things. It's not about hurting people. It's not about hurting anything.
It's about finding the beauty and love that's all around us.
It's about seeing the world for what it really is, and I don't think the world is an evil place.
And I don't think people were ever meant to have so much hate.
Somewhere along the way, I think some people just get lost, and have a hard time finding their way back. And in those moments, that's when we need love the most.
We just need to take a step back and look at the world around us, and after a while, maybe it wouldn't be so hard to see the beauty and love in people, in the world.
It is so easy to hate.
But, we need to realize, that it's just as easy to love.
So, why don't we just love?


Love Forever and Always,
Me

Unexpected Places

"I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go.
And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep walkin' til you find the window.
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to.
Your dreams stay big, Your worries stay small.
You never need to carry more than you can hold.
And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know that somebody loves you,
And wants the same things too."
--Rascal Flatts "My Wish"


Dear Diary,

Many people say that sometimes good things come when you're least expecting them too. They say that you can find good things in unexpected places. Basically, they try to tell us that if we just live and not worry, our lives will fall into place. Everything will work out how it is supposed to.
I truly believe that this is the truth.
Nobody expects certain things to happen to them, but sometimes those things do happen.
And sometimes those things change you.
When people learn that I am sick, they usually feel bad. They'll tell me how much that sucks and how much they pity me. When I was younger, I did that to.
Things have changed though. Now, I am the sick one, but the thing I've realized is that becoming sick isn't the worst thing that can happen. In a way, being sick has taught me so much more than having a normal life could of.
My life doesn't "suck." In fact, my life is pretty good. My life has always been pretty good. I have all the support and love that I could ever ask for. I have a house and clothes.
I have friends and a family, diary.
My life doesn't suck because I'm sick.
And it may sound weird, but in a way my illnesses have given me something that I would never have gotten if I didn't have them. They gave me the ability to realize that life is about so much more than what we typically see it to be. They gave me the motivation to help other people. They gave me the motivation to become a better person, but mostly it gave me the ability to appreciate and be grateful for things in my life.
Yes, my sicknesses have changed me, but I'm okay with that.
Sometimes good things come from unexpected places.
Sometimes good things come from our pain and problems.
Sometimes things happen for a reason.


Love Forever & Always,
Me